#or it just didn’t happen that often idk

[wishchip106]

hrrmm got my brain on the magneto: origins movie script

errr spoilers if you ever wanted to read the script for yourself:

for the first part of the movie this was just erik: 🥺😿

he was a tad bit fruity in this movie despite having a wife and child (WHO DIE AGAIN THEY CANNOT CATCH A BREAK)

if you looked hard enough he was flirting with that american agent BRO MOVES ON FAST

and then he was also definitely checking charles out while he played sport you cannot tell me otherwise

if you just changed charles to a girl idk what would’ve stopped the writers from making him the love interest

THEY RAN OUT A BAR GIGGLING AND HOLDING HANDS AFTER BEATING SOME PEOPLE UP WHAT IS THIS

they also worked together to stop a bunch of tanks and i think n*zi’s from invading the hospital charles was working at. They smiled at eachother while doing so wtf

at one point erik went to go meet up (and i think threaten) his ex-boyfriend who kinda betrayed him (american agent) and then proceeded to get arrested but then his current boyfriend came to save him

i kinda lost the plot during the last bit of this

they never really made clear WHY erik became magneto, for the most part of this movie he was more n*zi hunting then avenging his mutant heritage.

like the guy he was hunting down the whole movie did experiment on him cause he was a mutant and at the end he had captured other mutant kids and charles and erik went to go save them

but erik didn’t even interact or think about the mutant kids all he cared about was the scientist guy

it was charles who saved the mutants

just saying charles was pretty cool in this movie he wasn’t entirely limiting his telepathy

im pretty sure erik being a mutant was sidelined in this movie apart from him using his powers every so often

going back a bit but i remember erik saying he had to leave to charles and they were both kinda sad about it and then one the scientist’s lackeys or whatever came to attack erik (he failed) but he told erik they were blowing up the hospital

charles was smart enough to get everyone out before that happened but basically erik came running back and then told charles he was leaving AGAIN he just wanted to make sure pookie didn’t die

theres a lot more to this movie but this was basically what im just thinking about.

[la-principessa-nuova]

interesting, i was already under the impression that “identify as” was generally considered outdated

It was definitely the language I had previously heard of when I first realized I was trans and it honestly really messed me up and set me back thinking of it that way.

Because like of course I didn’t “identify as” a woman yet because I had been systematically excluded from the label my entire life and I had a lot of baggage to work through to accept that term for myself.

That language required me to work backwards by first working through all of my insecurities about applying the label to myself before I could then connect with my emotions and start to understand my own femininity and sense of belonging as a woman. So instead I put the thoughts on the back burner for 8 years until I happened to learn enough to think to approach it from the other direction.

I do find the “identify as” language useful for describing specifically whether a label fits me but that should only really come up rarely in deep discussion of terminology, most often with other trans people, and always when you’re primarily talking about the term itself and how you feel about it rather than just describing yourself. And even then it’s probably better to explain more deeply what you mean by that.

But at least for me, the “identify as” and similar wording may be useful for conveying some deep thoughts about my connection to the terms nonbinary and woman and explaining my history of accepting that those words do describe me, but also it still tends to send me into a spiral of self doubt and confusion because my feelings about words are complicated and linked to others’ expectations in a way that at least for me now, my sense of who and what I am isn’t. I have to remind myself mid-spiral to pause and connect with that for a moment to avoid talking myself into a panic.

idk i guess im just sort of rambling at this point

Idk more half baked thoughts time bc I'm procrastinating on finishing something I need to get done before the long weekend

I think somewhere along the way of not trying to be transmed we invented terms that trivialize the experience of all trans people, and honestly, especially those who are targets of transmed rhetoric and not on HRT.

"AGAB"

"identify" as a verb

And other examples but can't really think of them rn

[utilitycaster]

A thought in my head I’d like your take on about Liliana (and the whole campaign). You’ve talked a lot about how this campaign is more streamlined/like a module, like Matt wanted to tell The Moon Story this campaign, and for many reasons the Hells seem to have less agency than previous parties. I’m curious if Imogen ever could’ve convinced Liliana to join them, like if Matt would’ve let it happen or he always wanted to let this moment happen. Like Imogen didn’t often get to roll persuasion? It was just a lot of trying and failing to convince her mom, whereas like in campaign 2 Essek, someone the characters didn’t even know was bad, they managed to convince him to “switch sides” without even trying. Idk just all the circular arguments with Liliana, like “I can fix him, I can steer him in a different direction, I can’t leave the children, I can’t help you” it just feels like Matt was never going to let them bring Liliana over to their side

So this is a wild personal hunch but I honestly do not know if Matt realized initially that Imogen would try to persuade her mother. Like, I will admit to having a lot of D&D instincts that are very different than Laura's because I would have absolutely have gone for the assassination and Liliana would have possibly been out of the picture long before now, presumably (and to be clear, that would have had its own consequences! Ludinus probably would have gotten someone else to broadcast the Downfall information). I wouldn't be surprised if Matt was surprised that Imogen cared this much about someone who was consistently unhelpful and had abandoned her.

But more generally I think that Essek and Liliana are just different people. Essek did not believe in a specific cause and generally thought Ludinus sucked, but would at least provide some answers. I think by the time the Mighty Nein rolled around he was already having some regrets, even if they were largely self-interested at the time, and so being treated as just a normal guy was enough to start the process of shaking him out of it. He also was intended as an interesting recurring NPC, and the party adopted him for a number of reasons.

Liliana was already fully on Ludinus's side when the story started (though, again, aware enough to know Imogen should probably stay away) and was intended as an antagonist. It makes sense the party would cross paths fewer times with her than the Mighty Nein with Essek. There was no opportunity to hang out with her socially without the fact that she was fully in this cult hanging over everyone's head; we knew she was part of the Vanguard before we met her in person. I think it's more that like, the DC to pull her away was very high! She is either indoctrinated or genuinely of her own accord believes in the cause of the Vanguard. I think if Imogen had done a better job during the initial ritual things might have been different, but once she locked into the path I think it is reasonable DM-ing not to have her so easily swayed.

[forgetful-nerd]

Mikey getting his head patted/scratched by his older brothers is absolutely adorable.

Look at how much they adore their little brother.

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

Do you think someone ever gets too close to romana or tries to touch her and she just on instinct elbows or kicks or punches them because she’s used to touch being a bad thing

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss her…

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.

[edge-oftheworld]

one thing I love about following celebrities/artists who are honest and proactive about their mental health struggles etc is I can’t count the number of times someone I know is going through something and I’m like ‘I’ve got a song for u’ and how much of my life involves telling myself ‘if [redacted] can do something/get better/etc then so can i’ (and having actual real evidence of it in front of me) and I can’t understate how much I appreciate these things.

but at the same time it involves a whole lot of watching people I care about suffer and you learn to read the signs and infer between the lines in songs and interviews, and yes we can never fully know what they don’t share with us, but when they do share things it’s not a big stretch to be like ‘this seems like it’s what life is like for you and I have taken encouragement from it but you deserve so much better’. and it’s easy to find ways to get angry at a predatory industry and realise things that could be hurtful if you’re already fragile.

and we can advocate for some things and help ourselves and the people around us feel better but it’s hard to meaningfully reach your faves as an individual. and there are things we can’t say on the internet in too much detail, speculation becomes the harmful kind of gossip, and so sometimes it’s a whole lot of internally saying ‘you’re doing incredibly well to have gotten to where you are but I wish for your sake things would get better faster’

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Crimson Crown

sapphic high fantasy

in a world where witchcraft is outlawed by the king, a young witch from a coven masquerading as a convent is struggling to come into her powers, and live up to her mother’s expectations after her older sister died

when she discovers a way she could possibly bring her sister back, and prove herself to her mother, she travels to the palace and quickly gets caught up in politics, along with the ex she hasn’t seen in years, who has her own agenda

snow white reimagining, villain origin story

[beemintty]

Why must we long so much to live and so much to die?

[trashpremiium]

i wish i knew how to keep friends :( making friends is… hard, but doable. if i have a reason to be near someone and they’re amenable to my Autism Beam of infodumping, i can usually make them tolerate being around me for as long as that activity lasts.

but semesters end. mutual interests fade. activities wrap up. and then those people leave. not to say i’m not thankful for however long their friendship lasted, i just wish people were more likely to want to be friends because they liked me, not because i was a body near them to spend time with.

[sadieshavingsex]

Just remembered when I would wake up in the middle of the night and be like oh damn god wants me to pray for 10 minutes and then I would like fervently pray and like wish I could go to sleep but have to pray and worship for 10 minutes in the middle of the night to help whoever it was that needed helping

oh wait is this just like ocd lol

[thechosenthree]

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[danothan]

[cheridraws]

Actually now that I’m thinking abt it, a common thing in media I grew obsessed with is where two men (either very platonically in love or implied to be romantically in love) suffer through a big event where one of them dies because of the actions of the other, either directly or indirectly, and the other is forced to live with that grief and also deal with the guilt of having caused said death (whether they actually caused it or not). Like this has happened three times now

[armandjolras]

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